I've written almost nothing over the past few months, and I've also done almost no creative or academic work.
The reason for this is working a full-time job, which has been very demanding on my time and energy. However the economy is beyond fucked, so working for a wage barely gets you anywhere, but you still have do the same amount of work or more (so your bosses and managers get their big fat bonuses, and to compensate for all the jobs being slashed and the yuge numbers of people dropping out of the system). The job I had involved real physical work, which I don't mind, and had the added benefit of keeping me in shape, but unfortunately it just took too much out of me.
This led to a situation where I felt too tired on the days I had off to do anything creative, plus there were chores and errands to get to and so on. And of course once I felt rested and capable and optimistic, the work cycle would start again.
I would open up this blog, see I still had some views, and feel bad and want to write something. Sometimes I did, but mostly I just kept on promising myself, 'this time will be different' and 'I'll write something the next off-day, it's just that this one was a rare miss' or 'next week I'll get to this or that'. This went on for months. Eventually it became obvious what the problem was.
So I've decided to step down and work part-time instead of full-time. That way I can invest most of my time and energy into the things that really matter to me. It won't be a very impressive lifestyle, but if I'm not going to be making much money anyways (guaranteed, in this economy) it's better to scrape by while feeling fulfilled and engaged, rather than slave away at something I'm not even that enthusiastic about, and still not make that much money at the end of the day.
As far as I'm concerned, if the people in charge of our society want workers and grunts to supervise, they should start offering higher wages and better working conditions. But they won't, so the society will keep disintegrating and they might just wind up being the bosses and managers and supervisors of nothing, due to their greed. But that's their problem...
I'm going to do my best to avoid falling in the classic pit-fall of becoming an aimless NEET who just does drugs and alcohol and plays video games day-in, day-out. Fortunately I still have bills to pay, so I have some external pressure on me to work and produce something rather than waste away.
My main interests have always been artistic and of course intellectual, so that's where I'm going to focus my energies. I may take a course here or there, or do some kind of apprenticeship (it remains to be seen). I'm never going to college though, the whole thing is too rotten and too insulting. Since I've made decent money this year I've also been able to collect collect a lot gear, books, tools, equipment for different things, which I now finally have time to use. I may start a YT channel, for example.
For now, it's all up in the air, and anyways I have a real week of work left-- so this is still somewhat premature-- but the point is that things should finally get more interesting around here. Yes, I'm aware I've said that before, but fortunately I don't charge anyone for reading here (and never will), so this won't come off as a parasitic plea for MORE MONEY like the people on Patreon or Substack do. Even if it doesn't work out, and I sink into a stupor or eventually have to return to toiling in the collapsing economy or whatever you (whoever is still reading here) won't have been been scammed.